I am so relieved that I seem to tolerate the cancer treatments. I went in this morning for an infusion, and the time it took was greatly reduced from previous treatments. The tech told me that because I am tolerating it well they can speed it up a bit.. I came home tired and a bit hungry - my appetite has been way off the past few weeks. I ate a chicken pot pie that I had in the freezer and fell asleep for a couple of hours. Now I don't feel good, but I don't feel as bad as I did before the treatment. So I guess that falls into the "plus" column.
I decided to not crate Rocky when I left this morning, which was taking a chance because I thought I'd be gone for a much longer time. He was happy to see me when I got back home, and the only thing out of place was a chewed up Kleenex he found somewhere. I will be so happy to not have to keep him in the crate when I need to go out without him. He will be 3 yrs old on the 28th of this month, so maybe there is hope for great behavior. I feel absolutely terrible that I can't walk or exercise him - I'm afraid I'd fall over if I tried. Jeannie tries to take him for nightly walks but she can't always make it.
I have gone back to drinking protein shakes in hopes of getting some energy back. I'm waiting on the energy and am sure I will be gaining some weight - of course - in the wrong places! The shakes taste so good (I make them with whole milk) but I remember getting tired of them after a while, so will probably reduce the frequency of drinking them.
I'm starting to get back some of my hope for the future. It's a constant battle to stay positive, but it's the only way for me to stay content and even a bit happy!