I think I need something in my life that will give me a reason for going on. What I have is so boring and predictable, as well as lonely. I might be better off in a senior living community, and I have given it some thought. My daughter went to great lengths to find a builder of new homes that included a senior living apartment that is totally independent from the main section. I have every appliance except a dishwasher, and you will never know how wonderful a dishwasher is until you don't have one! I miss it terribly, as a single person doesn't accrue many dirty dishes each day, I don't like leaving them stack up in the sink.
I walk my dog every day but rarely meet other people on the walk, and those I do see don't say much more than "hello" or just wave as I go by. It is me, because when I'm outside with my daughter she has people clamoring around her to talk. I don't get so much as a wave or a smile. Can someone tell me if it might be my age, or if it could be another reason. I try to smile at everyone I meet, so I hope I look friendly.
I know my daughter searched for a home that would accommodate me in a private and completely equipped apartment, but I might have been better where I was and on my own. I hope I don't sound ungrateful, but I feel like I'm facing a slow death here. Another problem, or maybe it's just an inconvenience to me, is the fact that no commercial establishment is within walking distance. I wish I could walk to a store, a deli, or any kind of place where I would have a destination and would interact with others.
I know there is no answer for me, so I just have to suck it up and try to keep the peace.
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