I hate to say it but I'm not exactly thrilled to be here, and wish I was back in Rancho Cordova. That is where I lived in my mobile home, and while I wouldn't want to be back in the mobile home, I liked the area. I feel stranded here.
I can't go for a walk because I'm terrified of falling - my hand is still in a lot of pain from my last fall.
I could go into senior housing, and while some will allow you to bring a pet, I'm sure there are weight limits. Rocky hangs out at Jeannie's place anyway, and comes home to eat and sleep. I'm really fed up with the situation.
If the pain ever eases in my hand I might try walking for exercise and for something to do, but I won't take the chance of making it worse right now. Actually, I don't know if my situation could get much worse! I shouldn't say that, because of course it could get worse.
I might go into senior housing somewhere and be with others in the same boat as I am in!
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Hang in there Gypsy! Moving is always a bit stressful. Let things settle down and you get settled! Things will be better and you will love it. Try reading a book or two to take your mind off of things. Or watch some TV. Spend time getting settled. You will feel at home soon it does take time though. Soon Spring will be here and then you can spend some time outside and maybe do a bit of gardening! Sending hugs. Kathy/It's about time!
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ReplyDeleteGypsy, I have been having balance issues. I finally gave in and got a really nice red walker with a seat. It took me a long time to give in and admit to myself it would help me..Maybeit makes me look old but who am I kidding. now I can get around and not worry about falling.
ReplyDeleteGypsy you need to remember that moving is one of the top three most stressful situations. You need to take this time to relax, heal, and enjoy for right now. Don't even think about other living situations for a few months. Then you can think about what you want. I also think a walker would really be helpful. Don't let pride get in the way of your exploring the neighborhood. Stay safe. We all care about you.
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about dear Tioga George. He was wise. Although I never met him personally—alas!—-he has been very important in my life. One thing he taught me is the huge part our perspective plays in our lives. He said that if you look out the window, and don’t like what you see, you can change your perspective by looking out a different window. Maybe you’ll like that view better. He was talking about more than just RV windows.
ReplyDeleteI have followed your blog for many years. Now I am wondering. You are not liking the view in your life right now. Maybe you need to change your perspective. Maybe the windows you are looking through are clouded by your focus on how the past seems more pleasant than the present. That thinking about the past blocks the light of what might be a much better present view.
We have to look at where we are right now and find the best things we can. Of one thing I am absolutely sure! After a few days in a senior center, for sure, you would be looking back to where you are now and wishing you could go back.
I care about you.
Dear Gypsy -- The comment above is right on. Moving is horrendously stressful, especially at "our age" when we start feeling like we no longer have 100% control over our lives. You are also undoubtedly tired, hurting from the injured hand (which probably should be seen by a doctor!), and overwhelmed by all that is happening, plus in a new environment. I have been reading your blog for years, and you have been discontented for the past several years as well. If you go back to read your own blog, you were happy to have the "free" mobile home which you fixed up, but you soon were complaining about the rules in the community, the need to constantly weed, the noise from the dog park, the neighbors who were no friendly, not being able to go places you wanted to go, etc. Then you moved into the new place nearer your family and again, you became unhappy. Your family obviously loves you and adores you and is doing their level best to give you a safe, comfortable home with privacy for you to live in. I have, for some time, seriously felt that you are suffering from major depression -- clinical depression that can be treated with medication. It is time for you to speak with a doctor to get help. A lot of us suffer from depression as we get older...it is not something to be ashamed of, and I know that the "kids" would want to help you. Please do that. You are not yet ready to go to senior facility. Besides, where would Rocky go to get hs dinner and to sleep at night -- spunky young dog that he is who is enjoying exploring his new environment! Please take care of yourself!!!! We all care about you. Lynn in Buffalo NY
ReplyDeleteI agree with the previous post. The day before you loved your space. Stress, pain from the hand, not helping is the possibility of depression.
ReplyDeleteTomorrow's another day.
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You just need some sunshine. I bet hands in the dirt & seeds coming up will do more for you than pills. Such is life. Yes, tomorrow is another day and perspectives change. Great comment by RunNRose.
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